Sunday, November 06, 2005

Fasting

Ok, for my cool friends that don't know. Fasting is when you go without 2 meals. We Mormons do it once a month -- on the first Sunday of the month. Today, happens to be that day. And I, LIKE A FOOL, bought doughnuts yesterday, a whole dozen so we could have some today. Anyway, the sacrifice is great today but I am fasting for a particular purpose (which is encouraged).
I am so frustrated by Spencer. He isn't talking. He calls Drew "Mom" (he was yelling it the whole time at the football game yesterday, all the band parents kept looking at me wondering why I wasn't fixing his needs). Everything's a grunt or a whine. I think he is saying words, but most things sound like tree or cheese. Anyway, I really feel like I need some guidance from up above on this issue. I don't feel like anyhting's wrong. He is saying things, but more often it's grunting and whining. And sometimes I feel silly to think that god worries about my kids as much as I do. But, today I was reading my scriptures (gotta fill the doughnut wanting time with SOMETHING on Fast Sunday) where Moroni (and forgive me, I understand I am totally losing my non-member friends) is at war and it just seems like nothing is working out and they're gonna have to all die and then they spring the prisoners by getting the guards drunk. Anyway, I just thought that it always seems like your chips are down and that nothing is working and then WHAMO... God comes through for you. I just felt so loved after reading that, knowing that God cares about all of our problems (most especially our children problems, probably) and wants to help us if only we would ask. So, I am asking... and not having my doughnut and perhaps the only thing I will earn from the day is more patience, but who couldn't gather some of that and feel good about the day?

4 comments:

  1. Love that story in the scriptures. And I know that Heavenly Father cares about everything you do, and if you are fasting for more insight on this, you'll get it.

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  2. WELL YOU KNOW EDEN HAS THE SAME SPEECH STRUGGLES SO YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND WHEN I TELL YOU HOW EXCITED I WAS THE OTHER DAY WHEN I WAS TALKING TO HIM I SAID SOME SENTANCE WITH "COOL" AND HE REPEATED IT. I KEPT MAKING HIM SAY IT OVER AND OVER. I REALLY NEED TO RECORD IT BECUASE THE WAY HE SAYS IT IS SO WELL....COOL!

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  3. Anonymous7:54 PM

    Hello my dear home girl -
    Bless your heart. You know what is funny - perspectives. I have been amazed that every time I see Spencer (either on a weekly or bi-weekly basis) he is saying something new and clear as day - you can actually understand the little guy. No, his vocabulary is not completely formed yet, but he is making fast progess. I think Conner just set the expectation so super duper high that all of us look like dummies:) Enjoy his grunts for now as soon he will be expressing his opinions and I am sure at times, making you & Drew blush for the things that will come out of his mouth. Love to you - You are a wonderful mother! -Your indian friend

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  4. BTW you need to get pregnant so you have an excuse not to fast =)

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