Monday, March 31, 2008

Breathe

I am SO overwhelmed by my life right now.
This morning the car needed gas (I try not to let it get below 1/2 a tank, but we were WELL below that). I was gonna stop on my way home from pick-up at the one on the way, but the fill-up tank was there, so I drove by (word on the street, you're not supposed to fill-up at a station that's having their tank filled because it stirs up all the debris in the tank).
Then, as I'm driving to the other station (which is out of the way, and beyond the LONGEST light in the history of all lights) my gas light goes on. I seriously think I'm going to have a panic attack. I mean, I know I'm on my WAY to get gas -- and yet I'm freaking out.
I know it's just a lot this week.
I know my life is not that hard.
However, my work schedule is changing and I'm having a hard time with the random-ness of it all.
My family shouldn't even get NEAR me.
Let's just say I'm snippy, and I am constantly of the frame of mind that I am pulling the ENTIRE wagon on my own, regardless of the fact that we are firmly yoked, and I know he's (and they) are helping out.
I just don't know what to do with myself.
And here's the cherry -- it's my day to teach ABC school, one of my LAST days to do it. I think we've been over how 4 year olds get my blood pressure increased.
Regardless, life goes on.
What do you guys do when life gets like this?

6 comments:

  1. I usually realize I'm having something called PMS. Because my life is always like that, it's just my attitude is super bad about one week every month or so.

    Also, just so you know. The Odyssey has a 20 gallon tank. I never fill up until my gas light goes and it is usually 16.5 gallons to fill. So, if you do your math, when the gas tank goes on you still have about 60 miles before you're gonna run out. I still start to panic sometimes if I have to drive too far, but I've learned that it is really no biggie unless I'm 60 miles from a gas station. :)

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  2. I eat.

    But of course that doesn't help you in your quest to lost weight.

    Of course, I also realize that I need a little breather and take some time for myself, a walk, a pedicure, a visit to the library. Something alone and quiet.

    As for the whole thing about gas when its being filled, filling in the morning, etc.

    I got that e-mail and I googled it, and it turns out that most of it is hooey.

    Fill up. Don't worry.

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  3. Hilary, you know you're doing great! Just give yourself a little credit, and tomorrow will be better.:) REALLY. Or,maybe the next day. . .

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  4. 97% of the time I realize I have PMS when I'm feeling that way. Something about knowing that makes me feel better, like it's not really my fault I'm freaked out at pretty much nothing.

    You're doing a great job. I think your title says it all. Just stop and look around and breath for a few seconds. THEN take a deep breath and face the 4 year olds!!!

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  5. Breathe girl! You know you can drive like 50 miles (at least) after the gas light goes on. And what's the worst that's going to happen if you don't make it? You run out of gas- happens to people everyday.

    You'll be fine- you just need a few more kids. Having five kids helped me to relax and realize that life is short and you can't sweat the small stuff!

    Plus- you can't be perfect in EVERYTHING- so give yourself some room.

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  6. I went to bed last night and realized how my comment may have sounded. I usually try very hard to not "compare" someone's stress to the amount of kids they have. Anwyay, I just wanted you to know that I wasn't meaning to be all "look at me with five kids!"

    Anyway- you're great and I love your posts- they make me laugh and learn at the same time. And I
    (you have to know this) have been guilty, on more than one occasion, of stressing out over more silly things than running out of gas.

    I'll try and be more thoughtful at 12:30 at night when I'm blogging. At least I'll think about it for more than 2 seconds before sending it.

    Have a great day!

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