Blech, I am in a MOOD lately. Kids, work, house, it’s all just eating at me. I know we all get in that mood every now and then, don’t we?
I was reading some fabulous motherhood blog about an award someone got for being a great mom an I just wanted to vomit. Are her kids really all that much better then mine?
Does she REALLY parent better then I do?
Is it possible she’s self promoting so much she maybe isn’t as good as a parent?
If I vomit, would I lose weight tomorrow?
Let’s face it, I am never going to get an award for being a great mom. At least, not in a formal way. It’s pretty rare people do, and very often, those who DO get it don’t deserve it. Not meaning to say if you got an award you’re a crappy parent, just saying that some of those people are.
But there have been a few moments in my life that were more rewarding then any award.
I think I need to cherish those times more.
1. When Conner did Willy Wonka. I was just overcome by him being able to do solos and perform so well. I just think it says something about a child who is that self-assured. Also, it kind of came out of nowhere. I was shocked by how well he did.
2. I once got a letter thanking me for saving her grandchild’s life. There was a prolapse cord, and her nurse was an idiot, and slow, and I jumped in and went into my usual action. It’s a good feeling to know that someone’s happiness is because of you, and God — of course.
3. When the people at the library remembered my kids because they come so often and complimented them on being such great readers. Again, something really small but I HATE taking them to the library but I think it’s really important and so I go.
4. Mormon helping hands day a year ago when each of the boys did a TON of work and just go to it and worked HARD. I was impressed and several people mentioned what good workers they are.
So, as some things crumble, I can remember these times. I am a great person, who won’t be justified any more by an award or a dinner. I’m lucky to do what I do and have what I have.
And that is plenty of award or reward. If only I could remember that.