I woke up early this morning with so many thoughts swirling in my head.
I hate it when that happens. I prefer to wake-up after some WILD dream and just content that my own life is my own and not the 3 headed monster mistress Drew just revealed that he had. Ok, maybe I just prefer to wake-up content with a good night’s sleep.
Thoughts about selfless service and how I wonder if anything I ever do truly is selfless. I raise my kids in hopes that they will prove to be successful happy people who contribute to society. I admit that if they turn out to be complete failures I may feel badly. Hence, it’s not really selfless — is it? I help at school to spy in kids and hope that it all will get to be a little better. I babysit kids in hopes someone will do it for me, and the list goes on. I need to be better about doing things while expecting absolutely nothing in return. I shall work on that.
Thoughts about how Costco had the new samsung phone for only 30 bucks on black friday and how could I miss out on such a deal? HOW I ASK YOU!?
Thoughts about our move here and if it’s worked out like I’d envisioned and if it was worth it. I’m glad that our move was forced. I think I’d live in the past a bit too much if I actually had a choice in the matter. I did have a choice. I shouldn’t say I didn’t.
Thoughts about how if I thought about other people a lot less I could concentrate a lot more on myself. I’m not talking about thoughts like “she is so nice, I really like her” but more the “WHY ON EARTH WOULD SHE DO THAT” kind of thoughts. I need to eliminate those.
What do you think about in the early morning hours?