2 Years ago yesterday I saw this house. I remember driving up to it and wondering what stores were by it, or what neighbors we’d have. I’d left that ALL in God’s hands. I remember walking in and a wave of “this is your house” came over me. If you’d ever told me I’d buy a house over the internet a few years prior I’d laugh in your face, but this one all came true. Dreams do come true. And I found that out on the road of the horses….
And now I’m just in this funk. A funk like I have no friends, and people don’t like me. A funk like I wish I still had my friends from CA that I could go to the park with and reminisce about husbands with.
I’m not sure what it is. I haven’t been home this much with my kids in a long time during the summer. I think I miss my PTO stuff, and seeing other moms.
But, the point of this is that I was willing to hand the big stuff to God. Sure, get me a house and please let it be perfect. And it was, but me with my sniveling worries (because I do have great friends here) can’t get out of this. I’m not used to being unhappy. I don’t like it. It’s not that I’m unhappy, I’m just down. And unhappy with where I am at.
Anyway, I’m needing to perk up. I actually went on Facebook and pare’d down my facebook list. There are people whose posts drive me insane, and so I unfriended them. There are people I just don’t have “friend” feelings for in my heart, so I unfriended them. Most of them I hardly even knew when I added them, so no biggie.
Anyway, it didn’t help, but it did make me feel like I had cleaned and organized it, and heavens knows I love organization. 🙂
Maybe I just need some youtube organization videos.
Do you get in stupid funks like this? How do you pull yourself out?