The school carnival is next week and I just had a brief panic attack about it. Now that is resolved I have a few thoughts about how I hurt myself when I take on these giant tasks.
1. I’m pessimistic. Unless people are updating me on their tasks, I figure they’re not doing them. I had 2 people come through for me today so I’m pretty happy about that. I think I’d save myself a lot of grief if I just figured it’d get done and kept a positive attitude, it probably would. But, instead I spend the time worrying and stressing. Outcome: still the same.
2. I look at what everyone else is doing. My husband is crazy busy and overwhelmed and got some less then stellar news this week about his job. Not that he’s doing bad, just some budget cut issues. It’s always budget cuts for me… I should just go with that flow. Do what I can, and let the rest fall where it will. I can do what I can do.
3. I put too much on my plate. I’ve come to terms with the fact that if I don’t get some help this isn’t going to happen next year. That’s it. I need someone else in a leadership role. And that is all.
So, the morale of this story is that I hurt myself plenty when I do stuff like this. I could have minnions a plenty and I would still be overwhelmed. And I’m just hurting myself when I do that.