I want my entire life to run like a sprinkler system.
You do this thing, at this time, you always do it, it gets done, the grass grows and all is well.
The power never goes off, there’s never a break in the line, the sprinklers never mis-align, it never rains, it never gets hotter. Conditions are prime, 100% of the time.
Newsflash, are conditions ever prime? Sadly, I think no.
I just don’t know how to get out of the mindset that this is what I do at this time, and I get it done regardless of how I feel or how the kids feel about it and I get it done.
I mean, obviously, this mindset gets a lot done. I am a really productive person, but I don’t tend to ask myself the old Doctor Phil question of “How’s that Workin’ For Ya’?”
I’m not sure how blogging is working for me.
I often wish I was making a LOT more money, with a lot more traffic with a TON of people reading my site.
But, then I also like to spill my soul online and I hate for everyone to have a piece of my soul…
I’m also not sure how to fit it into my day. I’m really holding onto these last months of P home with me, and I want to just emmerse myself with her when she’s home.
I just don’t know. But I do know that blogging doesn’t need to be set it and forget it. I can blog when I have the urge to, and not blog when I don’t. My OCD just wants it to be written each day by 10 am, but let’s face it. Life isn’t even close to a sprinkler system, and there are SO many variables. I hate variables.
I like strong, solid numbers. Like 9.