I took up running a couple of years ago. I hate running. My lungs burn, my legs find muscles they didn’t know existed. In fact, when I run I am unable to think of people’s names as I see them. I think that my body is so deeply entrenched into the fight or flight syndrome, I am unable to use my brain properly. I’d say a good part of the time I even lose peripheral vision.
I can’t run.
And I just felt like I’d never be a runner and I’d never get any better.
Last year I took it up again, only this time it was sprints — part of my “pretty fierce” challenge. She had this weird program where you’d sprint 20 steps and then walk 30. I absolutely dreaded counting those 20 steps and always felt like the other 30 just zoomed by with barely time to catch my breath. Each time I increased the # of sprints that I did. I did this during the winter and it was cold. It was miserable. But, at first I did just did 8 sets of 20/30 and then by the end I had increased it to 16. Intitally, I was DYING at 8 — but by the end 8 zoomed by and I, true to my own form, was dying at 16.
I still couldn’t run. But I knew I could run further.
I had a way to measure how I had improved.
Often I come up with really vauge goals that is more based off a “feeling” rather than a number.
And I am slowly learning that math doesn’t lie.
Numbers don’t lie.
I mean, I guess they could — but really they can show you differences and desparaties. I’m truly an economist’s daughter.
And it’s time for this economist’s daughter to make her goals this year.
What I do NOT want you to do is to take these goals as your own. Perhaps they can inspire you to think about something in your own lie that you’d like to change.
It’s all about aiming for small changes. I’m excited. Here’s my plan!
Physical: I got a fitbit for Christmas. I’m uber excited about it. It also has a heart rate monitor. I’ve had a sneaking suspicion that some of my exercising (including when I lose peripheral vision) takes me out of my target heart rate zone. I want to make sure that when I do work out, I’m mainly staying within a good, safe working out heart rate. I’d also like to really vary what I do. 1 day cardio; 1 day social/competative exercise (either hiking, or maybe Drew and I could take up tennis); one day some quick cardio along with a nice weights session. The blog usually slows down in January and I am ready to take my weight issue by the horns and lose it. I also want to really (again) work on only eating until I am full and REALLY trying to take my own personal focus off of food. I know this goal may make me more tired during the day and a nap may need to enter the equation inititally.
Measurable Physical goal — 3 workouts/week (this goal may change as I learn more about what’s good for me on this fitbit) I’d like to do them as outlined above to try to keep them fun.
Spiritual: I’d like to really think about the sacrament before I go to church. Think about ways that I’m failing right now and how to adjust them in the coming week. Truly make a promise to God that I will be better. More love is an over-riding goal, and I think this fits in nicely, as my own frustrations with people tends to be a personal, spiritual sticking point as of late.
Measureable goal — 10 minutes of self-pondering before church on Sunday EVERY week.
Emotional: It’s time to stop pushing myself beyond what I can do. I can’t keep being bread winner, PTA president, mom and employee without losing my mind. I have WAY too much on my plate. I need to shove off as much as possible and I need to make room for ME during the week. I hope that social exercise will help, but I even have a girls trip planned this month (!). I would hope that I could have a girls day every now and then. I NEED A BREAK.
I deserve a break.
I need to keep all those balls in the air. Those are all important at this point. But my mental health is more important.
Measurable goal: 1 thing for “me” each month. Be it a lunch date, a big date with the hubby or friends. I’d also like to personally say no to something each month. I literally plan to put 2 stickers in my planner when I do something for me, and when I say no. Both will be a big one!
I’d love to know what your goals are! I’d like to update you in the coming year how I am doing. I also want to know how you’re doing! I think that if we encourage each other we’ll both do better.
Let’s do this!