Elder Uchdorf gave a great talk on jealousy and hate (actually it’s on mercy but for me it was on jealousy and hate).
And how we need to STOP IT.
And frankly, it was a bit of an eye opener. I’ve been more on edge lately becuase of certain kids. I just feel like they are constantly beating me down, no rest for the weary. It’s put me more on edge then usual. Frankly, I’m about 99% water off a duck kind of a gal. Especially when it comes to friends and acquaintances. I’m all to familiar with the “sorrow that the eye can’t see”. I know most people have good intentions.
But when you get me, and you’re someone I trust and you do something… well, I have a REALLY hard time letting it go. Frankly, I can only think of a few people who have passed that line with me. But, I realized after reading the talk that there is nothing less Christlike or christian then holding a grudge.
I am wasting energy, useless energy that I need to funnel towards my family.
Frankly, I really spend very little time holding the grudge, but sometimes I will see stuff on facebook or whatnot and it just “gets my gizzard” and I think this talk helped me to realize that is fruitless and I can’t expect mercy for myself (which I so greatly need) if I can’t give it to others.
And so I extend mercy.
I also want to continue to not get bugged by stuff. I do worry that I have heard other people’s feelings quite frequently. I’m brash, and I know I am but I mean well. Really, I do. Anyway, I’m a duck and water rolls right off my delicate wings.
It’s a great talk.