Thursday, June 16, 2011

This Is Really Happening

We had a lady come in the other day.  She was at a class with her son and then all the sudden went into labor.  Her mom drove her to the hospital from the class and her water broke as we put her onto the bed and she had the baby about 1/2 an hour later.

She just kept looking at me saying "I can't belive this is happening."

I couldn't either, it was pretty fast and obviously super unexpected.  She was before her due date and she only had time to come to us, even though she'd planned to come to another hospital more north.

And then I thought to myself, "this is REALLY happening."  We are moving, in possibly less then 2 weeks away from leaving everyone we love and all that we know.

This is really happening.

Fo. real.

I haven't really let myself think about this part.  Mostly concentrating on ALL that needs to be done, but not really dealing with the emotions behind it all.  How will I feel as I pull away from the silicon valley?  I am sure it will be a huge mix of emotions, and I'm excited to get to that point, but I dread it as well.

This is really happening.

ETA:  Be sure to check out Conner's lastest blog entries.  Today it's about our trip to Great America.


  1. Hilary, I love reading your blog and I think of you often. I just wanted you to know that. You have so many people pulling for you and I'm sure it will all work out. Thank you for your excellent writing and your inspiration (on your loosing it.. blog).

  2. I enjoy reading about your move because I've had all the same feelings you have had leading up to your move. I especially enjoyed your post about all the great things that were coming together for your husband but you not knowing exactly what was in store for you! I am having all of those feelings and I can appreciate everything you have posted!
    I stood in our empty house in Gilbert and cried my eyes out! I looked at my husband and said "What in the heck are we doing!?" And sadly, 3 months later, I'm still as homesick as ever! The only thing that keeps me sain is knowing that we moved for a great job opportunity for my husband and hopefully we will end up back in Gilbert! The only reason we moved was for a better job so it was so hard leaving our family and friends behind! There are still days where I think "what in the heck are we doing here?!" I'm not sure when that goes away or if it ever will! Good luck in the next 2 weeks. Having just lived through it, it sucks! ;)

  3. Hang in there Hillary. The homesickness will fade, but it may take a long time. It means you truly loved where you are and were firmly attached to those special people in your life in Santa Clara. I still have a soft spot in my heart for that town and the people I met there. It is only a 12 hour drive so when it's brutally hot here and you need to get away, go visit a friend or two out there. It will lift your spirits.

    I don't miss the pollution and the traffic, but I do miss our ward there and the lovely people we met. I don't miss the expense of CA either.

    What I've found with moving is my attitude can make all the difference in the world to my transition. It's not that I don't miss where we left or the loved ones that I left behind, but If I didn't have a positive attitude about exploring my new town and finding new friends- I would get really depressed and lonely. I love that on FB we can keep in touch and following blogs helps. You never know when you'll reconnect with a dear friend (like Eliza when I go back to OR). It also helps to accept there are things you will miss and that you will be sad, just be careful not to wallow. I'll share my woeful tale of the ups and downs of moving sometime if you really want to hear it, just have some tissues on hand. When I look back at where we started though and where we are now, I wouldn't trade the experiences and the heartache. It has made me a much stronger woman than I could have imagined and prepared me for the hard things in life that have come my way.

    Hope your move goes smoothly and you have a safe trip. BTW did you get the house?

  4. Suzie5:53 PM

    That was sure an amazing delivery. One I will never forget especially the counting to fast...haha!
    I've had so many fond memories with you working and many personal moments too! I'll miss you more than you will ever know! I wish the best to you and your family!!
    Much Love,

  5. a new adventure, a new chapter in your story :) I look forward to hearing all about it! :) Good Luck with everything.


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