Wednesday, December 08, 2010

A Little Life Drama for Your Reading Pleasure

Sorry about last night's overly dramatic blog post.  I just wasn't quite ready to "put it out there" and really type what's going on.  Sometimes it's better to just do a blog entry about Christmas traditions.  I mean, those are happy things, am I not right?

But, today I'm ready.  The hospital that I work at has been having an operating loss the last few years... and my shifts are getting further and further apart...  and yesterday during a meeting they announced they'd be doing layoffs.  I, of course, wasn't at that meeting but I received an email.  Per diems (which I am, and that basically means I work when I can) will be the first laid off.  Hence, I am being laid off.  I mean, the chips are still going to fall and blah, blah, blah but I'm pretty sure I'll be out of a job.

Of course, getting news like that isn't great.  You instantly think about your family and how you'll provide and how you'll go on.  I was pretty upset yesterday afternoon.  Of course, to the naked eye it looks like Drew and I have been spendthrifts lately but we just got to a point where our savings was pretty comfortable, should anything happen.  And now something has happened.

So, this morning in the shower I think about our budget.  We're currently throwing a lot of "extra" at our mortgage and our IRA's, and we can cut those out -- at least for a bit.  And shockingly, if I am not making money that decreases our tithing by quite a bit.  Long story short, we're fine.  We're a little short, but there are some "luxury" items we can cut-out.... and we're gonna switch to Hulu from digital cable (which was our plan anyway).  And we still have a nice savings.  Not to mention Mr. Obama and his extending those tax cuts.  Thank you for that, no so much thanks for the Healthcare overhaul.  You big jerk.

This morning I worked out with a pit in my stomach.  It's just sad news no matter how you look at it.  I HATE looking for/ training for new jobs.  It's just not a favorite of mine.  I don't like uncertainty.  I also really like my job, and I will be sad to leave it.  As I finished the workout and got down on my knees to pray and read the scriptures the idea that faith and fear can not co-exist entered my mind.  I told Heavenly Father that I had complete faith that he would make our family alright.  I told him that I hated having this pit in my stomach and I knew that he could take that away... and he did.  I am pitless, unless you count the bottomless one that is my actual stomach. :)  Well, and my armpits.  Those are pretty awesome too. :)

I feel bad feeling badly, because we are so OK.  There are a lot of people at my job who aren't so lucky and are in much more precarious positions.  My heart goes out to those people, and I pray for them.

Anyway, I'm not writing this blog for sympathy but I am realizing that a lot of job hunting is networking and thinking about who you know.  I'm not in a position to take any ol' job.  I mean, if money was the issue I'm pretty sure I could find a job fairly quickly.  I've been a nurse for a LONG time in a lot of different fields... but I need to find the job that's right for me AND my family (if it was just for me I think I'd go get an awesome ER job, I've always wanted to work ER).  If you know of anything that I'm qualified for I'd love an email.  I mean, I have no idea who reads this blog... I'm sure they all adore me! :)  I'm sure at least 1/2 of those people want to HIRE me. :)

Also, this blog is starting to bring in a little cash each month and I wouldn't mind a little love on your own blog.  I'd love some new readers, some clicks on the ol' advertising...  I must admit the ads that blogher finds are pretty appealing.  Miss P could use some weebles, I'm fairly sure.

Anyway, sorry about last night's "disguised" post.  I just wasn't ready to say it.  I've been working pretty much since I was 18.  A small part of me wonders if this isn't the time where I learn to play stay at home mom for real, but a large part of me really wants to keep up with a job. I know Heavenly Father knows my needs though, and he'll figure out what our family needs.  He's always done it before.

Anyway, blah, blah, blah I still have a job right now so I should get busy keeping my life in order.  I'm so grateful for the blog and how I can think out my thought process so clearly on here.  Thanks for reading this (if you made it through).  I hope you never get in this situation (although I'm sure plenty of you have), but if you do, maybe these thoughts will give you a little comfort too.

Happy holidays readers, it's the most wonderful time of the year! :)

6 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear the bad news. You're not looking to relocate, are you? Because I've got some ins in Maine, and I might be able to rustle you up something. And I know someone on the school board, who might be able to look around for music positions . . . :-)

    Also--I just switched from Networkedblogs to dlvr.it Judging from my stats, I think Networkedblogs was totally leeching my ad revenue and total viewers. dlvr.it is a much better program, I'm thinking. Love it so far. You might want to thing about switching, too--especially if many people come to your site via facebook. And do you tweet? Another way to get views . . .

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  2. I'm sorry that you are probably losing your job. It stinks! I'm glad that you have the means set aside for it to not really set you back. I wish you the best of luck in figuring out where to go from here.

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  3. Change is never easy...nor, I imagine, is getting laid off.

    But, I'm thinking of you and saying a prayer.

    And...yeah, if you are looking to relocate (which I know you're not) Virginia is awesome.

    xo

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  4. Don't feel bad about feeling bad. No one said you have to be happy all the time, especially not when handed bad news. The important thing is to move forward with faith, which you are already doing. :)

    I am sorry though, let me know if you need anything.

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  5. i like the way you think and write. you are my inspiration! good things will come your way. keep going, sister.

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  6. I'm sorry about your job! And what bad timing around Christmas. I have faith you will get a great job again and it sounds like you guys are very, very smart with your finances.

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