The Three Days

Time for an update to basically, again, say there is no update.

Drew has actually gotten quite a few phone calls following up and showing interest lately, but with zero follow-up after that.

I’m trying to just remind myself that those options aren’t meant to be.

We knew this would be an uphill battle.  This isn’t an easy spot to get.  He did talk with a couple of people who reminded him that the first job would be the hardest.  And somehow that makes me feel better.

We went to the temple yesterday and I was going to read the Mary Magdalene story, but instead found myself in the crucifixion story in Luke.

I was looking for a photo for this post and this one just speaks to me.  I feel like I have a whole boatload of balloons behind me.  I REALLY feel like good things are going to happen and that this all happened for a reason…. but then I’m walking down this road and I’m getting tired.  Do you ever feel like that?

Anyway, back to Luke.

It was so horrible leading up to the crucifixion.  I can’t imagine what it was like for Christ’s followers.  To see him be tortured and died.  And then he was dead and there were

three.

long.

days.

How dark were those days?  How much was their faith tested?  Did they lose hope?

I’m in my 3 days, only we’re past 3 months now.  Tomorrow is our AZ day.  4 years since we came here.  I mentioned to Drew that we’d need to celebrate tonight.  He wondered what there was to celebrate, but having faith in God’s plan for us is #1 for me in AZ day.  He helped us.

I was at a low point a couple of weeks ago.  I walked with a friend who reminded me that God just has us in a holding pattern because he is working so hard to build our future.

And I am working REALLY hard on not focusing on the future.  God is really providing for us.  I have a LOT of anxiety for the future as our son will attend the school that my husband is no longer working for.  I have always felt like we would move before school starts, but it is creeping up (AZ starts school at the beginning of August).  And because the 3 days are taking so long I’m starting to question all my feelings.

But I am NOT questioning that God knows me, He loves me and He knows my future.  It’s the perfect future for me.  But, it’s in the future.

And I don’t have a crystal ball.  Do you?

How do you deal with an unknown future?  I could use some tips. 🙂

If you’re interested in more of our job loss journey — check these posts out!

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